Chapters 400, 401, 402, 403, 404, 405, 406, 407, 408, 409, 410, 411, 412, 413, 414, 415 & 416: Untitled.

Happy Saturday!

I know I haven’t posted in a few weeks, and I do apologize for that. There’s no excuse for neglecting my blog, and all of you. 

I just don’t know if I want to continue this anymore. Do you ever have those times where you just feel like giving up? Giving up on your life, your work, your ideas, in favor of throwing in the towel? Sometimes it seems like there’s a mountain of things ahead of me, and I’m afraid that I won’t be able to figure it out. I’m afraid that once I start ‘climbing the mountain’, there will suddenly be and “avalanche”, and everything that has piled up will come crashing down on me.

And that’s a terrifying thing to think about. Especially as I near the end of my semester. I just feel like nothing I do is good enough when it comes to my work, yet I am content socially. I feel like I can’t have the best of both, even though I know that’s not at all true.

When I was stressed last year, I vented via this blog. And now….I don’t know if I can vent to it anymore. I know I can, but I feel like I’m being a burden to all of you readers. And I don’t want you to think I’m just a silly 19-year-old college student. I want to be seen as an adult, as someone you can trust and talk to here.

First, I need to trust myself, because I know I can do it. And it’s about damn time I start.

Sorry for the melancholy post, I just needed to vent a little bit.

But thanks for reading/listening 🙂

Hope you all have an amazing weekend! xxoo 

Chapter 4: Listening & Caring

Happy Friday Everyone! I hope you had a good week, and have an amazing and fun filled weekend!

Today, I listened to a friend tell me about her life back home and about her family & friends. But as she was talking, I came to realize she simply wasn’t telling me all of her story because I was just in the room with her. No, she was telling me these things because she trusted me enough to listen with an open ear and without judgement.

Having that realization that someone trusts you, is honestly one of the best feelings in the world. It means so much more than being a friend or family member…it means that they know that you’ll be there for them no matter what, and that you can also trust them with your story too.

Stories are meant to be shared, and when you find someone who is willing to listen, you know that your story is just as important to them as it is to you.Image