What To Do When You Come Back Home

10) Sleep. Sleep as much as you can before you have to return to your everyday life. 

9) Do your laundry, especially if it’s free for you to do. Most colleges require you to pay for your laundry, so I highly recommend doing it at home. 

8) If you’re going home for break, simply enjoy your time off. Make the most of it. 

7) Spend some time with family and/or friends, especially if you haven’t seen them in a while.

6) Take care of any work that you have to do. It’s best to get it done at the start of break, so you don’t have to worry about it later.

5) If you have a pet or pets, spend quality time with them! 

4) Take advantage of the fact that you don’t have to buy your own food. Dig in (within reason).

3) Make sure to book appointments/attend those appointments! This is something I often forget to do. 

2) Did I mention sleep? Because I can’t stress the importance of sleep enough. 

1) Enjoy your break! Go outside, get comfortable, it’s going to be a good time. 

Self Esteem, Meet Coming Home For The Holidays

Happy Tuesday!

I am now home for the next few weeks, until I fly out for my semester abroad! So keep your eyes peeled for more blog posts.

As I just mentioned, I am officially back in my hometown for break. And as anyone coming home from a long time away knows, coming back can be rough sometimes.

That’s because people still remember who you were back in high school, and they don’t know who you are now. Past memories come back to embarrass you in the middle of the night; you do everything in your power to avoid anyone you know. Because you don’t want to remember who you were.

For example, I was in the gym the other day, and I saw two girls who were from my high school class. And even though my self-esteem has improved since I went to college, it suddenly felt like I was 15 years old: I had to impress them by any means necessary. I tried to go faster on the machine, I pretended not to notice them; even though every few minutes I shot them a glance to see how they were doing. After talking to a close friend of mine from college, I realized the problem was not with them, but with me.

I had allowed myself to “wilt” around them, to forget all that I had achieved while I had been in college, and how much I have grown by being there with my friends. It was a problem that I had been dealing with for the past few years but I could never figure out the root of the issue. And even when I asked the people around me, they couldn’t figure it out either.

So the main question is…why do we do this? Why do we feel the need to revert back to our former selves any time we face our past?

Personally, I think it’s partly a habit or a defense mechanism. We feel the need to remember who we used to be, so that we can grow from those experiences.  Or maybe, we revert to who were once were because of the potential fear of judgement from our peers. If one person is more successful than another, it may feel like the latter will suffer a blow to their self-esteem. By coming back to a familiar place, it can bring up past memories for an individual.

Everyone has insecurities. And even if a person was considered to be “popular” by societal standards; it doesn’t mean that they also didn’t have insecurities of their own. And sometimes, it can take years for those insecurities to go away, and sometimes they never do.

But the important thing to note is that who you are now is not who you once were. We as humans adapt and grow as we age, and our mistakes in the past will become distant thoughts in the future. But it is when we cannot let our past mistakes go, that we hinder our future lives. It’s important to remember that we all have moments of insecurity; but we can’t let it control how we behave because then we will not be able to fully grow as humans.

Until next time!

xxoo

One Of My Favorite Poems

Hi!

I’m finally home for the summer, and thought I’d share one of my favorite poems with you to celebrate!

What is your favorite poem?

Let me know, and have an awesome day!

xxoo

“What the Hour Hand Said to the Minute Hand”

By: Megan Falley

 

“At 7:35 A.M, you lay your tired body on mine
before peeling off, like a slow band-aid.

At 8:40 you sprint home and make instant coffee.

At 9:45 we finally drink it, cold.
I finish your leftover half.

By 10:50 you are already breathless.
I live for every time we overlap.

When 11:55 comes I spend the entire minute convincing you to stay. 
You never do.

By noon I put my hands on your shoulders and say, “Baby, 
you’re getting thin. All this running in circles and barely sitting down to eat.”

At 1:05 you tell me that while you were gone,
15,300 babies were born.

At 2:10 you don’t say a word,
just come in and kiss me for sixty seconds straight.

At 3:15 we sit quiet, listening to rain falling everywhere 
in the world at once: all 15,000 tons.

At 4:20 we pull a little from the tight joint I keep behind your ear.
You do not inhale.

At 5:25 you meet me for happy hour. 
My neck already salted, a lime wedged in my teeth,
a shot of tequila sitting on the bar.

At 6:30 I hear the ticking.
I count your heartbeat like seconds between thunderclaps.

By 7:35 I can see you in the distance, 
each second a tease until you drape over me. 
We always love quick and you never let me hold you.
I dream of drinking you through a straw.

At 8:40 you watch my beard grow 0.00027 of an inch.

At 9:45 we do not speak.
Too many people have died since we last met.

At 10:50 we pray for a meteor, 
at least a clumsy kid to spill sugar in our gears.

11:55 is my favorite.
We’re only apart for mere minutes.

But at midnight you’ll apologize sixty times
because it will always be like this.

At 1:04 AM I am already sleeping. 
It’s exhausting loving someone
who is constantly running away.

Quick Note: Tomorrow

Happy Friday!

I’m sorry I haven’t posted in the past few days, I’ve been running around doing last minute things in preparation for heading back to college.

So, I’m heading back tomorrow morning, and it’ll be bittersweet! And of course, I’ll be sharing my adventures and life at school with you all. I can’t wait!

I’ll be back either tomorrow or Sunday with an extra-long post for you all!

Have an amazing weekend! xxoo

Chapters 208, 209, 210 & 211: Packing

Happy Friday!

I apologize for not posting, as I mentioned in my previous post, I have final exams this upcoming week, so it’s been a bit chaotic lately. Also, I’m heading back home for the summer next week, which means I have to pack up my room. 

Packing. Putting things in a bag, and taking them to a new place. Leaving one place for another. Leaving an empty room behind, past memories, leaving everything for something new. Maybe the place you’re going is somewhere safe, somewhere familiar, maybe it’s home. Or maybe it’s a new place, a new start, a beginning. Maybe by packing, you’re packing up the past, and leaving for the new. Packing things, maybe for a little while, or leaving them packed forever. Empty walls tell a story, but so do the things you pack. Maybe it’s the end of the school year, you have too much in your living space, so you pack some to make room, or you’re moving to a new place…or maybe you want to forget the things you pack. But maybe by packing specific things, you want to save and remember them. 

Maybe it’s just clothes, or just a few books. Or maybe it’s everything personal and loved, or things you don’t want anymore. Packing can mean so many things, and yet, it can be as simple as throwing things in a bag, and shutting the door behind you.

Where are your favorite places to travel? Mine are England, California, Florida…and home. 

Hope you all have a great weekend! 

Image xxoo

Chapters 174, 175 & 176: Home(Work) For The Weekend

Happy Friday!

After 12 years in the education system, I have finally figured out the true meaning of homework. While it’s a simple thing, work that is completed at home (duh), I never really thought twice about it until now. Because now, as a college student, I’m home for the weekend, and the amount of work I have to do can’t be completed while on the bus ride to school or frantically in homeroom.

No, the amount of work that’s been assigned for this upcoming week is the equivalent of a giant  wedgie (a mental one), along with a late bus ride, and indoor recess. The fact is, no child enjoys indoor recess in the spring. That also includes college students.

But, at least I’m home and in my own bed…surrounded by textbooks and notes….but still in my bed, so I guess that counts for something.

Who knows, maybe I’ll receive extra credit if I complete it in crayon? 

Hope you all have a great weekend! 

Image xxoo

Chapter 157: I’m Very Tired

Happy Saturday!

Today, I woke up at 5:30 A.M. Not for fun, or because I woke up randomly, but because I had an early flight back home. I’ve been up since then, and now, my mind (and body) is running on empty. Sadly, my vacation is almost over, and I’m returning to school tomorrow. Based on various emails from professors, I’ll also be receiving large amounts of work, which will continue at a steady pace throughout the remainder of the semester.

However, before I tackle all of those problems…I should finish packing first.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

xxoo

Chapters 148 & 149: Home Again

Happy Friday!

As the title says, I’m back home again, this time for Spring Break. It’s been pretty good, and I’m happy to be back with my family (and in my own room!). Even though I have some studying & other work over break, I’m still hoping I’ll get a chance to relax once I go to Florida.

Also, if I don’t post this upcoming week, or post infrequently, it’s because I’ll be in Florida, and my grandmas’ house doesn’t have the best Internet connection. I’ll try to make it work though!

Hope you all have a great weekend!

xxoo

Chapters 146 & 147: Almost There…

Happy Wednesday!

I’m sorry for not posting a “chapter” yesterday, as I was studying for midterm exams. I still have one more to take tomorrow, but then I’m free! Well, for a week or so anyway, but still. I can’t wait to head home and relax for a little while without too much homework/pressure of exams. 

Only one more day….which will be even better once I study some more, and actually pack my stuff 😛

Hope you all have an awesome day!

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Chapter 102: I Already Miss Home…Even Though I Haven’t Left Yet

Happy Saturday!

As I’ve been talking about for days, I will be going back to college tomorrow after being home for break. I’m almost completely packed and ready to go, but I already miss my family and the feeling of coming home. I’m going to miss not having to pay to do laundry, or having my own (very comfy) bed, not being to wake up late and not having to do work. But the thing I’m going to miss the most from home? Not having to wear shoes in the shower. I really dislike having to do it at school, so when I take my shower before I go, I plan to dance around barefoot as a reminder of what it was like.

Although, I am looking forward to heading back to school, although mainly because I miss my friends…and even though I won’t be under the same roof as them, I’ll still call my family almost every day.

xxoo