I know I haven’t posted in a few weeks, and I do apologize for that. There’s no excuse for neglecting my blog, and all of you.
I just don’t know if I want to continue this anymore. Do you ever have those times where you just feel like giving up? Giving up on your life, your work, your ideas, in favor of throwing in the towel? Sometimes it seems like there’s a mountain of things ahead of me, and I’m afraid that I won’t be able to figure it out. I’m afraid that once I start ‘climbing the mountain’, there will suddenly be and “avalanche”, and everything that has piled up will come crashing down on me.
And that’s a terrifying thing to think about. Especially as I near the end of my semester. I just feel like nothing I do is good enough when it comes to my work, yet I am content socially. I feel like I can’t have the best of both, even though I know that’s not at all true.
When I was stressed last year, I vented via this blog. And now….I don’t know if I can vent to it anymore. I know I can, but I feel like I’m being a burden to all of you readers. And I don’t want you to think I’m just a silly 19-year-old college student. I want to be seen as an adult, as someone you can trust and talk to here.
First, I need to trust myself, because I know I can do it. And it’s about damn time I start.
Sorry for the melancholy post, I just needed to vent a little bit.
But thanks for reading/listening 🙂
Hope you all have an amazing weekend! xxoo